Now that I've collected my thoughts and have time to sit, a little Logan update
I woke up yesterday morning to frothy attempts at vomiting all over the bedroom (and I didn't even wake to hear him retching, which breaks my heart but hey I doubt I would have done anything at 3am anyway) which was sort of odd. Logan for the record, is a barfer. Bailey farts, Logan barfs and belches the most disgusting of things...anyway, stay on topic.
I called the emergency vet because Logan seemed off. He's a very gentle, quiet kind of guy but he was too quiet and too timid. I convinced myself he had bloat because it seemed the symptoms were there: dry heaves, frothy vomit, a hugely balloon bloated tummy that felt rock hard. It was a little scary - Phil took him because we have babes and they need me but I did want to go with Logan because really the dogs are mine. They love me the best..not that I'm bragging just stating the facts.
Logan didn't have bloat but his kidneys were failing. After bloodwork tests an an ultrasound which showed he has some very freaky kidneys. Small, abnormal things that couldn't possibly do the job right. If there's a dog that deserves the best kidneys ever it's Logan but hey when life hands you lemons right? He's there, getting stabilized. This looks like a life-long thing and for his time with us he will need a special diet, and medication to keep him in sort of a remission.
I spent my morning yesterday crying.
I'm okay now, I think. I have called a few times and will be going to visit him almost as soon as I finish this with Paige, who claims she misses him so very very terribly. I think the other dogs miss him too. Having 3 slobbering, drooling creatures that poo and burp in your face and demand rubs! And treats! And outside time! Can be exhausting, but it's worth it. Because they are so fuzzy and warm and unconditionally loving.