While Phil is food shopping with the children I am here reading, writing and sipping on a hot coffee in my pretty floral bathrobe and damn it feels good. Do you see my new tattoo? My neighbor (who's lovely) and I sat and talked about it and decided on a peach tree (because I called Paige peach for quite some time..) and my favorite quote All good things are wild and free...
This week we added a new small furry addition to the family, a hamster. He's a pain in the ass to catch, and the animals may want to eat him but he's a blast to watch. I'm thinking Sunflower (her name) needs a female friend because apparently this breed's social and I don't think grabby eager 4 year old hands count.
Yesterday while playing with puppies I got asked (again) if I was expecting. Instead of talking about my "condition" or replying with my usual just fat thanks I just went with the flow. Yep I'm pregnant, yep third kid can you believe it? Thanks for the well wishes bye..I am sick of justifying my stomach to people. Yes a good portion of it is sweets but a larger part is not. I left quitely and texted my wonderful best friend because she helps me breath through stuff like this and sure enough, I was fine 10 minutes later. It can get exhausting, dealing with the comments (which are roughly weekly..) but having supportive wonderful friends and family helps. I don't care what anyone says sometimes you need the person who can say "shut up asshole you're beautiful, people love you, fuck that lady holding the cockapoo"
Our plan to start the fairy garden was thwarted yesterday when I found a huge, very dead groundhog in the middle of my backyard. He's been eating my garden(as in all of it..) so I'm not too upset, but it was strange to see (I've never been that close to a groundhog!) I think my dogs may have done it because they are really eager to get their hands on the few bits of wildlife here in the city, but still not sure. He was dead for a few hours (we hadn't been out because of rain) but didn't seem too wounded. Maybe he had a heart attack when he say two huge dogs running towards him? Regardless between him, and the rain we only got to lay a few stones done before coming inside for dinner. The fairy garden is actually turning into a place where Wyatt can sit happily in the dirt chewing on bark, and Paige can get filthy which is fine..I love my kids dirty.
Tomorrow my entire family will be here and I can not wait to get that warm fuzzy feeling when everyone's together. Now I'm off to take a long (5 minutes instead of 35 seconds) shower and preparew for the arrival home of my babes and some yummy treats. And kool aid! I hope he remembers kool aid for the playsilks we are making next week.
Every summer I get all thinky and start making up lists of things we must do.
This is my 2011 list --- post your own in your blog, on your chalkboard, etc and share :)
* Go to the beach for swimming, shell collecting and boardwalk rides
* Geocatching with Paige and Wyatt
*Walk the Columbia Trail looking for fairy houses, and building our own!
*Make our own preserves
*Turn one raised bed into a fairy garden and mud playscape for Paige and Wyatt (pictures soon, we are working on this now)
*Work on caring and not killing my herbs, zucchini and tomatoes
*Have a dozen bbqs with friends
*Fish with my Dad
*Spend at least 20 hours a week IN nature
*Find a swim spot, visit frequently
*Attend the local (and not so local) fairs (rennisance! farm show!) and street festivals. Devour outdoor story times, concerts and parks that have WATER to splash in.
*Drink at least 2 glasses of sun tea lemonade daily
*Go for a bicycle ride with the kids on a pretty trail (note, get bicycles)
*Catch lighting bugs
*Make garden wish/prayer flags
*Lay under the ceiling fan at least once a day
I will think of more I'm sure as time goes on, but for now we better get to work!
Why blog when you can be outside
The past week I grew up a little, and i'm not 27 which is practically a real-live grown up. Much like the lost-boys I have no desire to be an adult but being a momma has saved me a little. I get to spend my days reading books, baking sweets if I want, telling stories, building fairy houses and acting silly with my two favorite creatures. The best present I got this year was the gift of SLEEP. And on Fathers Day I got more sleep because Phil woke up at 5am totally rested, and took over for an hour..good thing because I gave him the gift of peace and quiet for the day while I carted both babes down to Camden to the aquarium and children's gardens. It was the most lovely day because it was lazy (minus te 2 hr driving trips, constant pee stops, and wrangling two children..) We pet some stingrays for 20 minutes, ate ice cream in the shade, stood and looked at fish and just took our time...
That is my parenting motto: just slow the fuck down.
I have learned to stop and smell the mint, to admire the tiniest teenest ant crawling on the sidwalk, to pet peoples puppies (no complaints there) and to let Paige have 5 more minutes in the park. It's not such a bad way to live, these lazy days that roll by when we just take our time.
The other day I bought canning jars because I, Tracy, plan to do some canning!
That is the book I've gotten and have been reading duitfully during car naps.
I want to make the lavender strawberry jam because YUM, it sounds so nice. A certain groundhog has feasted on our own strawberries this year, so I'm going to take Paige to pick some fruit at some point this week and we will start the process. I anticipate I will screw up at least 3 times but that's okay as long as I get some jam out of it.
This week may bring rain but I don't mind, thirsty bushes need it. I plan on working on Paige's fairy garden, planting a few more things, pulling a slew of weeds, having family over to celebrate Wyatt's birthday, eating a hundred or so ice creams, and hopefully visiting a farm or two.
Can you believe that this time last year I looked like that?
And ended up with him
A boy and a girl. Almost one year later and I still can't put my mom around the fact that I'm going to be 27 and have a pretty house, two huge dogs, two kids and a little SUV with mom bumper stickers on it. I cry during commericals, I read about things like vacinations and education. I've found this passion in my babes that I didn't know I had him me, and without them I'm really lost..like, literally. Today I had a kid-free day and did about 2 hrs worth of pacing, and napping.
As you know I've been collecting inpiration for my children's summer birthdays and I wanted to share (more) some of Wyatt's.
First birthdays are for mommas and poppas and we keep them simple.
The grub? Most likely BBQ things year which is deliciusly simple, and this will be our first *real* grilling of the summer. I'm thinking two kinds of hamburgers, cold salads (cucumber, pasta, veggie), baked beans, corn on the cob with garlic butter and that's very much it.
The cake? I am going baker-hunting to get the perfect moon cake.
This will be the first birthday for both my kids that we will have a birthday ring and I'm excited to start new traditions for our little family. You normally get a birthday ring for a child and fill it up with pretty wooden fingers and things and for each year that passes, you replace a treasure with a candle.
I've also gotten Wyatt his first doll (the red head) which can be loved and adored for Paige's super hero party too
So happy for that. I don't want to ruin the game we will play with the few children, or the goody bags in case someone who's coming reads this blog, but they will be moon-space-star related. Summer birthdays are the best! Now here's to hoping Wyatt keeps his birthday crown on, and we have a lovely day eh?
#1 For days now I've had the task of updating my debit card for Typepad so I could you know, keep blogging. And every time I huffed, puffed and climbed into bed with my laptop I've realized that my wallet was downstairs on the counter buried under failed art projects and there was just no way I was leaving my comfy little alcove to get it. How lazy can I get? Apparently very.
#2 I'm not handling my total lack of privacy (living here) very well. Yesterday we were in the garden pulling up fennel and looking for bugs when Paige decided to play with the hose. It's her very favorite thing to do so I took a seat with Wyatt and warned her not to get me wet (white sundress, no bra, neighbors..yup) naturally she got me wet 11 x or so before I sort of lost it and yelled WHAT THE $9*$(*$*($ don't get me WET. I sprayed her actually, and she started fake-crying-laughing and we looked like a total train-wreck family which is fine because hey, sometimes we are. And I look up and there's my 20-something neighbor just watching me, glaring really, while I interacted with my child; reprimanded her for spraying me, explained why ice cold water can take someone by surprise in a bad way, while we continued with our evening of fennel picking and honeysuckle sucking. She literally watched, went away, came back and watched..it was very awkward because I saw her looking at me, and when I would look up she would glare.
I don't want to be here anymore.
#3 My birthday is next week. Birthdays are a very big deal around here so I'm hoping for some sweet treats and..I don't know.
A PUPPY?!?!? A BULLDOG PUPPY?!?!??! Paige is very much like me and the other day she mentioned we should "just go, get a puppy, and let Daddy be mad...it'll be so cute he'll STOP being mad after a little while.." Amen daugter, how do you think we got all these animals we have?
Realistically I will not get a puppy because we have a plethora of animals
#4 Lately Paige has been very interested in birth, life, and death. Which brings me to the religon thing, because we don't "do" religon very much. Example: my mom mentioned god once and Paige asked "who is she.." Is it okay if we sort of DIY our spirtuality? Can we very much belief in mother earth and taking care of our planet, and being kind to people and animals but also very much believe there's an afterlife and a higher power? Because that's where we are at -- because when she asks me what happens if we die I answer firmly there's a heaven but I'm just not sure about the in-between stuff.
(more about religon and spirituality later this week..)
#5 I love that summer has so many juice learning opportunities that occur through outside play.
Life is ok